lent that ever so catholic tradition of giving soemthing up and not eating meat on friday and lieing to yourself and saying......

hey I can do this its just like that new years resolution I made that lasted a week right? 40 days should be too long to give something up right but being a whiney American used to getting his way and not having to give shit up for some cause better than anyhthing because hey the big guys son did it right why cant I? well I'll tell you why I have never been able to finish anything in my life is it because I'm cursed with ADD? so the other day I was riding my bike and I....but seriously this lent like the last 3 lenten seasons I will attempt to give up swearing the last lents I made it for a max of 25 days and failed how does that make me look to someone who sat in a desert without food or water for 40 days and managed not to do anything and I cant even give something as trivial as swearing up? pretty lame when you get down to it dont you think? but the other part of it is your supposed to fast but as the passage says about making sure others dont know and clean thyself do not beat your chest and stnd on the corner etc etc and the whole no meat thing shit one day a week not so bad right but for me once again for some reason I "forget" and eat all the meat I can but this year I'm not even going to make a consious effort to try and keep this stuff going because I already know its all not worth it so why bother y'know but if by some twist of fate I do manage to do it well then its a sign that things really are changing but as another saying goes a faith of convienience is truly a hollow faith does that mean I'm screwed or have I really tried to be a good catholic boy I mean to an extent I have been but I dont know anymore its like I'm just wandering around talking to myself and eating 10 day old soup.... so with that being said I will go quietly this time andI'll keep all my thoughts locked up in my mind and for the record I always was true.....
*looks toward the sky*
Give me strength that only you can Big Guy.....